Just ’cause.
And I didn’t want to put up something predictable, like a full moon or a werewolf or blood spatter.
Happy Hallowe’en. Be safe.
Just ’cause.
And I didn’t want to put up something predictable, like a full moon or a werewolf or blood spatter.
Happy Hallowe’en. Be safe.
Hard upon the heals of my previous panegyric, a placeholder.
Last week Donna and I enjoined our first dinner train, the Columbia Star out of—you guessed it—Columbia, Missouri. Here’s a photograph and a promise that I will shortly be writing about it at more length. Meanwhile, have a pleasant next few days.
I won’t be posting for a couple of days, so I thought I would take this opportunity to put up a new image that I’m offering for sale through November.
The print will be (roughly) 11 X 14 on a 16 X 20 background, mounted on foamcore. $150.00 plus shipping and handling. Those interested, email me at info@marktiedemann.com for purchase details.
This weekend I’ll be attending the local science fiction convention, Archon. I’ve only missed a couple of these since 1982, when Donna and I went to out very first SF convention, Archon 6. Stephen King was guest of honor and we got to meet many of the writers we’d been reading and enjoying, some, at least in my case, for many years. Until that year I hadn’t even known such things happened.
Science fiction for me was part of the fundamental bedrock of my life’s ambitions. Not just writing it or reading it, but in a very real sense living it. It is difficult to recapture that youthful, naïve enthusiasm for all that was the future. The vistas of spaceships, new cities, alien worlds all fed a growing æsthetic of the shapes and content of the world I wanted very much to live in.
I’ve written before of some of the aspects of my childhood and adolescence that were not especially wonderful. My love of SF came out of that, certainly, but it was altogether more positive than merely a flight response from the crap of a less than comfortable present. I really thought, through a great deal of my life, that the world was heading to a better place. I found the informing templates and ideas of that world in science fiction, in the positivist philosophy underlying so much of it.
And I liked that world!
It was not a world driven by bigotry or senseless competition for competition’s sake. It was not a world where deprivation was acceptable because of innate fatalism or entrenched greed. It was not a world that lumped people into categories according to theories of race or economics that demanded subclasses.
True, a great many of the novels and stories were about exactly those things, showing worlds where such attitudes and trends dominated. But they were always shown as examples of where not to go. You could read the paranoid bureaucratic nightmares of Philip K. Dick and know that he was telling us “Be careful, or it will turn out this way.” We could read the dystopias of a Ballard or an Aldiss and see them as warnings, as “if this goes on” parables.
You could also read Ursula Le Guin and see the possibilities of alternative pathways. You could read Poul Anderson and see the magnificent civilization we might build. You could read Clarke and glean some idea of how people could become more than themselves.
You could see the future.
And what did that future offer? By the time I was eighteen I knew I wanted to live in a world in which we are all taken as who we are, humans beings, and nothing offered to one group was denied another just because. I recognized that men and women are equals, that our dreams and ambitions are not expanded or diminished by virtue of gender. I understood that building is always more important than tearing down. I discovered that Going There was vital and that the obstacles to it were minor, transitory things that sometimes we see as too big to surmount, but which are always surmountable.
Sure, these are lessons that are drawn from philosophy and science and ethics. You can get to them by many paths. I just happened to have gotten to them through science fiction.
I envisioned a world wherein people can engage and interact with each other fearlessly, without arbitrary barriers, and we can all be as much as we wish to be, in whatever way we wish to be it.
So imagine my disappointment as I watch the world veer sharply in so many ways from that future. A world where people with no imagination, avaricious or power hungry, people of truncated and stunted souls are gaining ground and closing those doors.
There is a girl in Pakistan who may yet die. She’s 14 years old and she was shot by the Taliban because she dared to stand against them. She assumed her right to go to school, something the Taliban refuse to accept—females should not go to school—and rather than engage her ideas they shot her to silence her.
In our own country we have men in places of power who think women shouldn’t have the right to control their own bodies, others who opine that maybe slavery wasn’t so bad after all, others who deny the legitimacy of science because it contradicts their wishes and prejudices.
This is not the world I imagined. Why would any sane person deny anyone the right to an education? How could the community around this girl even tacitly support this idea? This is so utterly alien to me that it is incomprehensible. This is evil. This is not the world of tomorrow, but some kind of limpet world, hermetically sealed inside its own seething ignorance that, like a tumor, threatens everything that I, for one, believe is worth while.
So I write. I write stories and I write this blog and I write reviews and I write and I talk and I argue. It is disheartening to me how many people use their ignorance as a barrier to possibility, to change, to hope. I can’t help sometimes but think that they would have benefited in their childhood from more science fiction.
I still have hope. It still comes from the source well of my childhood imagination, that we can build a better world. If that’s naïve, well, so be it. Harsh reality, unmitigated by dreams of beauty and wonder, makes brutes of us all.
See you at Archon?
Back in August, friends sent me a lovely orchid with a get well message. I don’t believe I’ve ever received a more beautiful flower. As thank you and to share, I offer this image:
Archon 36 is approaching and I’ve taken out a couple of panels in the art show. Consequently, I’ve been playing in order to create images suitable for a science fiction/fantasy art show. My most recent accomplishment:
I have a few others, plus a couple of actual paintings and drawings, but I’m fairly pleased with this one.
Now for the crass commercial message. This image is for sale. The one I’ll be hanging at Archon will be and you can order one directly from me. Just drop me an email, mentioning the image title (Twin Sun Pastoral) and I will reply with price and all that.
In fact, most of my visual art is available for purchase and some time in the next couple of months I’m going to be putting up another page here to feature an “image of the month” for sale.
End of commercial. As I become better acquainted with Photoshop, I’m finding ways to realize more interesting images. (I recently discovered the magic wand and it has opened up vast possibilities!) I hope you enjoy it at least.
And thank you in advance for your consideration.
I’m finally able to sit in front of my computer for more than five minutes at a stretch. (Nothing painful, just really uncomfortable.) I suppose I’m progressing. My patience abandoned me weeks ago, but since I have almost no energy, it’s not an issue.
Next Tuesday I have my follow-up at the various clinics to see if I’m doing well enough to be “unplugged” and go on my own. Which only means that afterward I have to be vigilant for a couple of months in regards to fever, etc. Last night I discovered I’ve lost 15 pounds, which under normal circumstances I wouldn’t mind terribly much.
Meantime, I’m doing some reading. I have a few books going at the same time. I’m finally reading the first Aubry/Maturin novel, Master and Commander. This has been recommended to me by so many people whose taste I trust and I have been so utterly put off by it till now that I feel a bit embarrassed. The big problem is the plot—which proceeds at a snail’s pace. But I’ve given it the major attention it clearly deserves and I can appreciate what O’Brian was doing. Not sure I’ll continue on with it, but I can now declare that it is indeed a fine piece of work.
A couple of history books, and I’m reading Leigh Brackett’s The Long Tomorrow. Yes, this is a reread, but since my first time was forty-plus years ago, it’s virtually a new book, and I guarantee I missed a lot back then. I’ll be doing a long post about it soon.
Anyway, I’ve booted up my novel again and I’m noodling with it. I’m only three or four chapters from done with it, which makes this past month a real annoying waste in my mind. But the downtime has given me the space to rethink a couple of things, which is all to the good. A better book will emerge from this.
So, till later…
For those who may be interested, recovery continues. I know things are improving because my memory is fairly clear about how bad things were. Last week, the week before. But, as is the nature of the critter, we tend only to focus on the present and how crappy it may be.
But I am getting work done. I’ve completed the first few prints I intend to exhibit in this year’s Archon art show. Done the critiques of the short stories for the workshop I’m conducting then. And just about finished two chapters in the current project. (About those chapters, it is with wry amusement I note that I was about to doggedly go down the wrong path in one of them when this nonsense struck. Between the time off and the percocet hell, I realized the mistake I was about to make and corrected it. Always look for something positive, you know?)
Other things are better. Not great. I seriously doubt I’ll be back to the gym for at least another month. And my body seems to have entered another phase of healing, because around noon or one o’clock I seem unable to stay awake. My sleep is deep. I’m assuming my body knows what it’s doing.
Part of my reticence involves a growing lack of patience. I’m getting well enough to start chafing under the restrictions. I would really like to walk my dog by myself. I would like to go to the grocery store so that Donna doesn’t have to. So on and so forth. I’d like to be able to say I’m catching up on my reading, but that hasn’t been a notable achievement.
In any case, I’m still alive and that’s the best part. So till my next entry here, I’ll leave you with a new image and a hope that the rest ofyour summer is just fine.
Selective blindness is something everyone suffers. Depends on priorities. It becomes a major problem when an entire society experiences it, which happens too often. So, just a little reminder…